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Is it just me or do we normmaly take advangage of percious moments little things that came mean so much then when they are over we want to go back for example a simple hug can mean so much i never thought i could miss a hug so much the closeness to the two the silence that is in no way akward but beautiful able to feel the other person breathe the way arms feel when they cycle around you forgeting about the world the is waiting outside those arm knowing nothing can go wrong as long as you are there feeling so feeble in the other persons arms the underdisturbed bliss pure innocent happines knowing there is no place you

It has been two weeks with Angel. Two great weeks. He has stayed with me every single day in the house.  Of course he worked, in what I have no clue but he told me that he could work form the house and that it wouldn’t be a problem. He said that he didn’t feel comfortable leaving me in the house, especially with the state I was in. The last part he always added to tease me. Mostly we just stayed in the library and talk all day. He told me about his life and strangely it was very similar to mine. How he lived alone for most of the time in the orphanage but he work hard to be on the top of his class. He wanted to get a good job and

Leave me alone ! You bad nightmare You haunting memory of the past There no rest with you Do you wish to kill me Please do Im begging you Take me out of my misery What do you want from me You want me to wallow in  the past the beauty past of when i had a right to dream of when there was a chance Stop! Stop! Stop! Go away They used to be lovely dream Thing that i could day dream about Why can't i just stop You dumb heart You stupid stupid tears Why don't you just give up Why do you keep fighting Why do traitor tear cascade down my face Why can't i let you go What have you unwilling done to me When will i sto

Im lost again Why do i do this when will i learn when will i see throught you I get so easily lost But not just in anything or anyone Im usually in some control But now i have none I have no control about what i fell what i wish i could say what i wish i could share In what do i get lost in I get lost in the goofyness of the moment in the light atmoshpere in your teasing   in the way i am treated in all that you do and yet you still have time for me I get lost in you love for God In your mind which i have yet to fully understand In your soul which is one of the purest i have known In your heart which ha

I'm at church sitting with my freinds. I'm at the place where i find most peace. I'm at the place where my bestfriend is. I'm at the place where concentrate on God. I'm at the place whre i know i'm safe.I'm at the place where my love is. There are visitors at church and thery have a presentation prepared for us. All the lights are shut off and the church becomes picth black. You hear teen's voices. Teens who love the Lord. Teens that have so much to give. Teens that are full of life. Teens that are full of The Life. Teens that are full of Jesus Christ. Teens that the devil wants to destroy. The end of the presentation is closes. We can all t

How more can despreate can i be I still think about you I want to move on But my heart dose not "Get a grip. He dose not like you" I say to myself Why can't i understand that Why can't i just accept it I guess moving on isn't as easy as it sound Then again life is not easy What i wouldn't give to go back to August When it first all happened. I was so happy Never have I been so happy I wish i could just go back I wish i would have said things I wish i would have done things I wish i would have told you every now and then how i felt   I'm rembering when you took my in your arms and just held me In front e

Chapter 5 A new love I woke up the next morning so early the sun just staring to rise. I remember that I had asked Angel to stay and he did. Actually he was still hear now. Suddenly he started to rub my back “Go back to sleep, it’s still early” he whisper in my ear. We were in the same position as we were last night with my head laying on his chest and his arm wrapped around my waist keeping me close to him.  I nodded my head on his chest but I couldn’t go back to sleep so I just laid there on him with my eyes closed. After a while he chuckled “You’re not going to go back to sleep are you?” I shook my he

A broken heart has come to me today Of all day Then again it would have been A bad day anyday for this to happen My hand is missing something It feels empy It feels bare It feels heavy A ring that i had with me Is now no longer in place It had been removed A ring that symbolized never ending had been broken I should have know it would have no lasted long Who was i kidding   My heart is crying Inside i a broken I can't show it I have to be strong for many people But it hurt so much Yet I thanks God for it I felt it I was happy I felt love Someone loved me Even if it was not for long I felt it i expir

God's Unconditional Love What can we say about God's love? We can say that God's love is unconditional. God does not say, "I love you, if ..." There are no ifs in God's heart. God's love for us does not depend on what we do or say, on our looks or intelligence, on our success or popularity. God's love for us existed before we were born and will exist after we have died. God's love is from eternity to eternity and is not bound to any time-related events or circumstances. Does that mean that God does not care what we do or say? No, because God's love wouldn't be real if God didn't care. To love without condition does not mean to love without c

The Master was searching for a vessel to use; On the shelf there were many which one would He choose? "Take me, cried the gold one I'm shiny and bright, I'm of great value and I do things just right. My beauty and luster will outshine the rest And for someone like you, Master, gold would be the best!" The Master passed on with no word at all; He looked at a silver urn, narrow and tall; "I'll serve you, dear Master, I'll pour out your wine And I'll be at your table whenever you dine, My lines are so graceful, my carvings so true, And my silver will always compliment you." Unheeding the Master passed on to the brass, It was wide mo